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All bruised up.

I've been writing blog posts on my online class blog for a couple months now, but it's no fun. Because I'm forced to read other stuff people were forced to write. no fun at all.

i just read a friends blog and it sort of pushed me to sign in here. not to mention i have a lot on my mind. not that I'm going to talk about it all.

First off i just had such an amazing weekend after so damn long. Seriously love everyone in my life right now and the places they hold in my heart and mind. Lupe concert was awesome. He is so wonderful <3

Within the last few months I've lost (not by death but other circumstances) two of the most significant people in my life thus far. my best friends, one my choice, the other, a truly pathetic and sad situation. I have no regrets though. I built up enough strength and courage to let these people go on their way. Sadly for them, they didn't realize what they had until they lost it. It is always just a little too late. what can you do after trying you're best? you live you learn. khalas.

I'll mention one more thing. I do not like people asking me about my relationship status, whether i am single or with someone. The only people who i don't mind asking me are people who are on that level of friendship with me. Not even just acquaintances or casual mutual friends. One of the reasons i do not like discussing this is because whether i say yes or no to the question "are you single?" no one believes me. i don't really care though. Along with that, i just don't see why you would care whether I'm single or not. Its not your business, and clearly I'm not interested in you knowing that status either, so please kill your curiosity kitty.

Live and let live beautiful people. Relax. Enjoy. Appreciate.

i leave you with some epic bruises from an epic night. well worth it haha.

ciao!

"I ain't sayin' a word 'till i get appropriate representation"

i love this artist - B.o.B. - Bobby Ray Simmons -i truly believe he is genius. and hopefully this will be a bigger year for him. it really needs to be. real music.good music.smart music.

props to my cousin for getting me even more into him.

His most recent mixtape dropped in December 2010 (seems so long ago HA!) download it. FEEL it. LOVE it.

it is called ---- No Genre

i did a quick search to find a site where you can download all the tracks.

http://www.datpiff.com/BoB__No_Genre.m176133.html <<---- DO IT NOW!!!

i'll leave you with one of my favorite tracks

listen carefully.

bon appetit!

SA ;)

BEAUTY AND THE BEAST

FALL-WINTER 2010/11 HAUTE COUTURE
BY ELISABETH QUIN

crafty. creative. very sweet statue.




I feel a very wearable collection. Elevator music? not so much.





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Fruit and Yogurt

these past couple weeks have been quite interesting. well mainly the week of April 11-18. so many events took place that my mind did not have time to think about my laptop that i lost on Wednesday the 14th. YES I LOST MY LAPTOP! Like most of my friends, you're probably wondering how can you lose a laptop? I'll tell you how. You're in class taking notes then class ends and you put your charger away in your bag then someone starts talking to you in person while on the other hand you have 2 other people calling you and 4+ text messages where other friends are asking various questions. So due to the distractions and ADD you may forget to put your laptop away which you shut the screen so its not really in you vision anymore.

However, my professor begs to differ. he believes that i actually have dropped it somewhere,possibly the bathroom he says. But i dont understand how i can drop a laptop and not hear it drop? im not sure what happened to it, but it is gone. and i have been computerless for nearly two weeks now. i always thought if my computer ever went missing, i would panic and go crazy screaming crying etc...but that was not the case.because 1) i had concerts to attend to. LUPE FIASCO on the14th (same day i lost my lappy) and DRAKE the next day - 15th. and 2) workgymwork and 3) my friend's wedding was on Sunday the 18th. so basically my mind and body was to occupied to stress. Mind you though every night when id come home from wherever i was, i would feel very lost and confused, then i'd just fall asleep.

The worst part is that, everything i do in school resides around my computer. I do not have bookwork or book studying, it is pretty much all papers and notes and photoshop and etc ...so i have been feeling suffocated because i havnt been able to get any work done. Sunday night the 18th, is really when i felt very overwhelmed and vulnerable, at my breaking point. I did not know what to do because i had a few things due for classes the following day that i could not get done. Matter fact i only turned in 1 out of 3 assignments because i just did not have enough time in school to do them(more computer based work). Thankfully, Allah has blessed me with a wonderful brother from another mother, who let me borrow his computer for the rest of the week, because otherwise i would not be able to do my finals. I love RoBro so much, he always has my back.

Where there is a will, there is a way.

The only thing i want to say about the concerts is that they were AWESOME! my fav tho,was def LUPE. mannnnn he tore it doowwwwwnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn. love him. plus i was like only a feet away from him! soo intense. ok so maybe that was more than one thing i said about the concerts. =)

oh and i almost forgot, i was called like literally a few hours before my friends wedding to do the photography on the womens side. i wanted to say 'no i want to enjoy the wedding', but i couldnt because that wouldve been so mean. i know if it came down to that point for me and i had to ask a friend and they turned me down id be so upset. but not even that, i didnt mind it really. it was fun even though i was hooting then put the camera down then dancing then shooting lol. i havnt had a chance to look at the images though bc NO COMPUTER! =((( i need to get to editing them asap.

I must say the most amazing thing for me the past couple weeks is the GYM. man do i love getting a good workout. nothing can beat that feeling. Ive been going with my bestfriend Didi and working her out. man she hates me for it but she'll thank me later lol. im starting to tone up again slowly but surely. I have changed up my entire diet. I feel so much healthier. My diet consists of - sushi, grilled chicken breasts,salads, wheat/grains cereal, yogurt, fruits&veggies, and rice. I have stopped dessert cold turkey! and that is my alltime favorite food.My cheat day is wednesday, but i might be switching that day but for now it is wednedays. i love living a healthier lifestyle.

So school is over. just have one final monday (tom) and a paper to turn in wednesday. and the best part about this week isnt that school is over, it is actually the fact that MY MOTHER IS COMING HOMEE!!!!!!!! WWOOOOOOO!!!!! man do i miss her. cant wait to see her little cuteself and all thegoodies she got me haha ;)

i will leave you now with my new fav snack- Vanilla Yogurt topped with fresh Pineapple. Cost efficient, healthy, and absolutely DELIC!

Not A Very Happy Post

i dont know how to communicate with you. i dont know how much clearer i can say things to you. Why do you have to bring me down with you? Who am i suppose to turn to? If you dont understand me, who that really matters will? i find it getting harder and harder to talk to you, to listen to you, to respect you, and yet theres not really a way i can disown you. You think youre suffering alone. Life isnt fair. You have responsibilities. Just as i have responsibilities. We must all do our parts. Why cant you think rationally? Why do you keep bringing burdens upon yourself ...along with others? Our life styles are different. but not really. If you really listened to your heart and soul and mind, you wouldnt be such a mess. Why must you listen to others? others who really arent phased about your well being nor have the proper education or credible knowledge to assist you. i wish i could ask you these things. i wish we could be closer. i wish we never fell apart. i wish you adapted well to change. i wish you didnt do and say somethings that you do. to me, you are pathetic, lazy, weak. you complain, whine, and aggravate. you dont listen. you are closed minded. you have a filthy mouth and you are in denial. you are filled with too much nonsense and not enough common sense.

nights like this when i stand totally and completely alone...it hurts. i cant just talk to anyone. The ones i should be (or want to be) talking to ...ARE my problems. why? because i realize they ALL have communication problems. how is it a person like me has people like them as my closest people? complete opposites on that end (communication). maybe thats why its my major. lol yet its probably the most important thing to me personally. having good communication skills and a positive attitude.

It's a quarter after 1 and i need you now...

Spacebar

im at work on a tuesday and i dont usually work weekdays on school weeks. it feels a bit awkward. cometo think of it i dont work tuesdays EVER, that day is almost always my off day.

i had "halal" pizza today before work. i remember wheni first found out about "halal' pizza, i was so amazed yet confused, like how can pizza be halal? its only cheese and maybe some veggies if you dont/cant eat pepperoni. but anyway it was yummy, of course ate it with a little ranch.

i cant believe one of my professors made us takea quiz for plagerism, i mean i know itsimportant and etc but that is SO gradeschoolish! come on now prof. this is a 400 level course jeezz.

this keyboard has an issue with the spacebar. n i dont feel like going back and fixing the spaces i missed.

one more hour and im off yippy!

i saved a hundred dollars to give to mommy when she leaves thursday. i think i'll give it to her tomorrow night. i didnt want her to spend it or give it to her son so i waited. i hope she appreciates it. bc sometimes,well a lot of times if i give them money , and it isnt appreciated, instead over looked or not enough or suddenly it becomes my duty or you know one thing or another.....

i wonder what mom cooked, i'm hungry.

i need to book my ticket to arizona, well inshAllah i really want to anyway.

k bye .